Koi no Yokan

Earlier today, I saw someone who I used to be really close with. Yun lang.

Lol it was one of the most awkward moments I’ve ever experienced, too awkward to be shared. Gah pero seriously super nawindang ako. Honestly speaking, I was expecting him to be there.. Yes, I was expecting you. My friend told me kasi that she saw “this guy” some time last week sa Mcdo din. Right after I step out of the car kanina, I realized na it’s possible na nandito ulit sya ngayon. Pero I just ignored it, I didn’t bother telling my friends anymore kasi baka kung anong isipin nila at asarin pa ko. Knowing Ola, lahat ng bagay nilalagyan ng kulay. Wag kasi ganon, T-ice lang ang dapat nilalagyan ng kulay. *wink*

Sitting at the table, my super daldal and super nakakaloka friend shouted (yeah shouted –ish.. in public haha) “Uy si Ghdjsh!” I thought she was just joking but then when the guy passed by my side. They were all like..

“HUWAT DA PAK, ANDITO NGA TALAGA SYA.” I said to myself. Para maintindihan nyo lalo, here’s what I really felt inside..

Hahaha lol

and what I looked outside

Excluding the heart effect of course!

I saw him and I felt this weird and odd feeling inside. I hate him for that, and guess what, it got way weirder when he stopped by our table to approach me… No daan ka nalang please, don’t talk to me. You’re just gonna bring back shit loads of bullshit and memories!!! Noooooo!

….fine

“Hi Maine! Soory na, peace na tayo achu chu chu chu”

Okay

 “Maine tignan mo yung hair ko!”

Okay  

(Short hair na sya! He never wanted getting a haircut.. as in. Which is really shocking nga kasi short hair na sya ngayon! Naalala ko tuloy sabi nya sakin noon, if ever magpapagupit sya, ako yung reason. Guess that was just before. Btw you look good, pare, you look good! 🙂 )

“Apir tayo!”

Okay

Lol joke I was smiling and laughing the whole time kaya ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha okay I just laughed.

Okay

 I hated him even more..

Kidding. I don’t really care enough to hate that guy anymore. I’m changing my ways, okay na din lahat, I’m way too chill for that now.. 🙂 Am I still making any sense here? Haha, no? Anyway..

My friends were like..

“Ano ba guys, move on!” – Ola

Fine, moving on.. Yung mga ganong incident? Yung magkakasalubong/magkita/magpapansinan/eye contact with someone who used to be sooo special. I thought those were only in movies! Very very awkward.

This is sort of a long story, basta we used to talk every day, EVERY night.. thru text, phone call, chat, Skype, and FaceTime. At night, we always tell each other about our day. 🙂 I love how we could talk about nothing for hours.. he used to tell me how much he likes me. I remember when he used to hug me.. 🙂 he never wanted to let go. “Huuuuug!” Pbb teens? Haha hinahatid pa nya ko sa kabilang side ng street kasi hindi takot ako tumawid. (Yes I’m 17 and I still don’t know how to cross the street, minsan lang!)

He’s the last person I think about before I go to sleep, and the first one when I wake up. The fact that I wake up to a good morning text from him every morning. 🙂 *sigh* the way his words and actions make my heart flutter. <3 Everything seemed so perfect, then this one night came and changed everything.. everything between us. Charaught! Joke lang lahat ng sinabi ko, haha joke!:) 

 I didn’t know you’d mean this much to me when I met you and honestly, if I think about it, it would’ve been so much easier to have never met you in the first place.. (insert bipolar emoticon)

 ..that’s all I have to say. I can’t tell you guys more about what happened in the past, talagang ganon ang buhay. You can’t choose what stays and what fades away. Anyway what’s done is done. Baka makita pa nya to or what. Who knows, baka mamaya regular visitor pala sya dito! (which is kind of impossible cause I bet he’s very busy figuring out the existence of everything in this world. Or if God do really exist? Lol kidding!) We’ve known each other for such a short time but yet I know him too well, he won’t waste his time reading some non-sense blog sh*t 🙂 Haha but if ever you’re reading this.. hello sayo and nice seeing you earlier! 🙂

I’ve nothing else to say. Sige last na! This is how I looked after the ‘seeing-the-person-who-used-to-be-special’ incident..

Still..

Yet my friends were expecting me to be like..

Include the heart effect na this time! “Ano ba guys, move on!”

But really I was asking God why, bakit nagkita pa kami, bakit ngayon, bakit don pa? Of all places, why Mcdo?! Kasi I always wonder how would I react if I see him..

Ayun..