It’s almost four and she is still awake.. wide awake.
It is not unusual for her anymore since she is more of an evening person. Her mind functions very well at night. Well let us not relate school stuff here, okay? She wants to write, that’s it. Write about anything. She wants to let her feelings and thoughts out of her chaotic mind. It’s about the random little things she has been bottling inside. Everything that is going through her head that are kept for a period of time. It is full of beautiful yet awful thoughts and illusions, bothering her every single night.
She wants to share it, but she can’t. No matter how much she wants to free her mind from her unwanted thoughts, she tends to keep it all to herself. Everything’s occurring suddenly in her mind. Without a notice, her mind wanders. Whether she like it or not, it is going on through a lot.. and it happens all the time. Sometimes it makes her happy, most of the time it makes her sad. It’s like ‘so happy one second, incredibly depressed the next’. And that depression is slowly eating her up. She can’t do anything about it, except close her eyes and pretend like everything is just in her mind. But it’s not, it is already happening. And that’s what scares her; the fact that she might not be able to keep up because a single thought may just simply take over her being and change everything.
You are an amazing person. Here I can see the real you. A far cry from the “Yaya Dub” we all love. Now I can see beyond the character on TV but still love and support you just the same.
Ok nothing wrong being pessimistic but dont indulge on it too much because itll make you “toyoin” realist is ok you just expect the worse all the time, but with all the positivity occuring right now in your life im thinking do you still have time for negativity?
Ako ba ‘yan? xD