Time passes, you stay.

 When you lose someone, someone you love. Then they break your heart.. it’s the hardest thing you could ever go through. You don’t know exactly what went wrong, but you know it’s always your fault. And no matter how much time has passes, it never really goes away. 🙂 You may think you’re getting better, but then you get a flashback, or maybe hear a song that reminds you of a memory, and it hits you all over again, all at once, like a stab in the chest.

You fall apart, for the hundredth time. And you feel like you just want to crawl under a rock and never come out. You love this person with all your heart, even though you know you shouldn’t. They hurt you worse than you’ve ever been hurt. Even if you’re not together anymore. They stole your happiness (since when did “some” girls let boys dictate their happiness anyway?!) but yet, you still want them, only them. Other people come along.. You go out with them, you do things with them, you blah blah with them and stuff. Then eventually you’re starting to fall for them. They give you chances to move on.. but you know deep down that you still don’t want to. It upsets you that you might be moving on, because you told yourself you never would. Or maybe you feel that some parts of you still belong to the “other one”, to the one you truly love/d. Or worse, you promised yourself. And even if they broke all their promises, you want to keep yours. On top of that, you’re terrified. Terrified of getting hurt again, but it’s not like it matters anyway. 😉

Cause at the end of the day you’re still thinking about the person who has left you completely broken. You don’t want to miss them anymore. You don’t want to love them anymore.. but you know you always will.