It is one of those melancholic nights where I find myself contemplating about how my life has been going lately– cruel, to some extent. I was incredibly happy the time before life decided to throw some lemons at me, and I must say that it hit me hard. I honestly did not see this coming. Well I kind of did, but I didn’t expect this to start off this way. Well.. I also kind of did, fine, let’s just say I didn’t expect this to start off this bad. I guess carrying out my optimist side and remaining positive didn’t work as for this matter. Everything is starting to go wrong and I don’t think I could just simply go on with this. I keep on hurting over the same thing over and over again, and I want it to stop, but I don’t think there is anything I can do to make it happen. There is nothing I could do to please people into believing the truth, or at least just listening to whatever I have to say. I want to let them know; I want to be understood.
Being a pessimist is hard especially when facing a problem. Considering the fact that every problem has a solution, people like me tend to keep on the negative track and start thinking that things are never not gonna get better. That maybe things are meant to stay this way. We (speaking on behalf of the pessimist club) always generate an incredible amount of mental and physical stress. It feels like you are trapped inside a room with no way out, without anything else to do but cry for help. There are other better things to do aside from wallowing on the shit show of your life but at times you just refuse to do it. Sadness takes hold of you leaving you depressed and devitalized; and the only way to release the tension is to cry.. and cry.. and cry.. and cry. It does help a little but it doesn’t really take the pain and the sadness away. I guess I might have to deal with that until I-don’t-know-when. *sigh*
Frankly speaking, I am terrified for I know that this is just the beginning; I know, for certain, that bad days are about to come. Everyday, I force myself to think that God won’t ever put us through something we couldn’t handle, to at least keep me from worrying. That life itself is a series of challenges, whether large or small, and everyone has to go through it. But having said that every problem has a solution, I’ve come to believe that everything will be alright eventually; it might not be today or next week or next month, but in God’s right time,
everything will be alright.
( ( ( ( ((((( POSITIVITY ))))) ) ) ) )
Thanks in favor of sharing such a fastidious thought,
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Hi Miss Maine!
Just wanted to say that I’m really amazed at how you accurately depicted what it’s like to be a pessimist and an introvert who’s going through hard times.
I, for one, always find it hard to voice out my feelings and/or opinions, for fear that I won’t be heard, or just be misunderstood. I’ve always been afraid to say anything that I think would hurt the people that I love and usually end up hurting on my own.
Writing has always been my comfort, but it seems that I still can’t get past my low self-esteem, seeing that I haven’t let anyone else read what I’ve written. I kinda got the impression kasi na my thoughts should only stay in my head…
But I know that I’ll be able to make it, if only I could trust myself more, and to trust in Him completely, as well.
Thank you so much for being an inspiration. I’m a big fan of yours, not just because of your videos, but because of what goes on in that lovely head of yours, how you express yourself and how you are as a person.
I apologize for the lengthy post.. I just kinda felt it fitting to let you know how much I loved this post.
God bless you and may you finally see how God has laid His perfect plans for you. Keep inspiring people Miss Maine. 🙂
when you said “We” on behalf of other pessimist out there, I felt belong and feels like we’re on the same world — the world which I, my mind has created was also the world where you were but we haven’t seen each other because we’re just sitting on the corner and wasn’t aware we’re not alone.
To extent that kind of feeling, indescribable, you’ll just suddenly feel sad and you don’t want to take the med even thou you know what to take. You just want to embrace the feeling and just embrace everything. 🙁
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Positive? naah, i know it, but I’m too cynic to believe it.
I really can relate my self to you! Sana maka-kwentuhan kita some time. Dying to see you. 🙁 Loveyou always ♡
Just remember Meng, when life throws you lemons, make some lemonade. I really do understood. When a problem came, then you can’t say anything o your family & friends because you are not brave enough, masakit sa loob, sa puso. Sobra. And what I always do is just cry away from anyone 🙁 I really can relate my self to you! Sana maka-kwentuhan kita some time. Dying to see you. 🙁 Loveyou, always ♡
Sorry if I am going comment to your older blog posts. I can just open myself here eh. Thank you, Maine. Love you, always ♡