“A true friend is one who thinks you are a good egg even if you are half-cracked.”

Years ago,  I never even bother to be alone. Until I figured that everyone has someone close to them, best friends. I used to believe that i can only definitively call someone my best friend if he/she publicly declares me to be a best friend as well.. pero hindi naman pala yun ganon. 🙂

Anna Katrina Robes Nicolas

Yep, she’s my new diary. Last night, I told her everything..(thru fb chat)

Confiding everything, venting about everything, college experiences, thoughts, love life, friends, foes, what’s bothering me, what makes me happy and stuff. Nakakatawa nga kasi i just keep typing random things without getting any response from her. But she’s tweeting her reaction naman right after i tell a “depressing” or a “happy” experience of mine.

By telling her everything without feeling shy and awkward, I can say that she’s my best-est friend. This is the very first time I told everything to someone. It feels so so so good, having someone to open up to. Having someone who’ll not judge you for being yourself, someone who’ll always be there for you. Knowing all your quirks and flaws but still loving you. Ang sarap lang magkaron ng ganong kaibigan, yes? I never felt any awkward moment with her, ever. We never ran out of things to talk about. There are times kasi when I open up to someone, I feel like they’re not interested kaya I always keep my feelings bottled up and it makes me feel even worse..

Sometimes I prefer keeping all of it to myself (better to be alone at probably the worst possible times), what’s the point of sharing your thoughts to someone when they’re not taking your feelings seriously diba? Pagtatawanan ka pa nila. Minsan naiisip ko wala akong best friend, yes there are some pero yung naturingan lang na best friend? Best friend kung tawagin pero in times na kailangan mo sya, dun pa sya wala. Tss let’s define the word “best friend”

I’m just very lucky to have Kat as one of my best friends, she’s the best of bests nga diba? People like her are worth keeping. All my close friends are worth keeping, actually. But as much as I hate to admit, I’m really having trust issues with some of them. I don’t know why but sometimes I feel like they’re stabbing me from behind.. (But I guess it’s just me being feelingera and pessimist! Haha :)) At times I prefer to mute myself and avoid talking to them. But still I know that I can trust them, they’re such good people and have confined so many secrets of their with me. 🙂

Just sooo lucky to have those people! I did not actually choose them. They’re those who I feel closer to but, I didn’t pick them. I allow everyone who crosses my path, the same as another. They will show their true colors sooner or later. Minsan may mahirap pakisamahan dahil sa ugali (just like me!), nagkakaron ng misunderstandings, alitan and everything pero at the end of the day we still stick to each other. Weather weather lang yan! Those who have ulterior motives for their friendship will fade in and out. My place is not to judge anyone but, to give what I have and love them all, just the same. Naks!

But there’s this one question left unanswered.. “Why do I even have friends?” I mean, may nakakatagal sa soooobrang pagka moody ko? HAHA WEH, DI NGA?